stay

“Grief is an unpredictable little beast. It’s much more chaotic than anything I’ve ever felt before.”- Daniela Tempesta

Last year when I took an online class with the teacher Laura McKowen, I really attempted to learn to manage emotion. Being prone to very dramatic versions of feelings I was relearning a way to react. Oftentimes I am prone to wanting to end discomfort, distract from it or fix it. One of the great lessons that stuck with me is simply this. When you are in turmoil and every cell of your being is uncomfortable, “to get free learn how to stay. “

when the ache of grief wraps tightly around your ribs, stay.

When your mind is spinning with what if and should have, stay.

when regret over words said, compassion withheld and moments lost seep out of you, stay.

when the pain is mobilizing and screaming out, but really needs to move you inward stay.

when for so long you have chosen not to run, not to numb, not to shut down. Be there again, stay.

when the hot tears roll up to and out of your eyes unrelentingly stay.

be open to what is for you. Know that it is safe, and crucial, that you stay.

I love you. I see you. Stay.